Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Today...I felt infertility.

Today, I felt infertility. I mean I REALLY felt it. It has been following me the past few weeks. Babies everywhere, ultrasound pics being uploaded to facebook, baby pictures being pinned on pinterest, adoptions, due dates getting close for pregnant friends, baby showers, baby bump pics, pregnancy announcements, and the final kicker...an adorable birth announcement in my mailbox tonight! Deep down, the core of me is soo happy and over the moon for my friends and acquaintances who are in "baby land", but the right now, THIS week, THIS day, I'm...well, I'm sad...I'm infertile.

Some of you who have experienced infertility and pregnancy loss know what I mean when I say I felt infertility today. Some days are better than others. I deal with it. Ignore it. Pretend it's not happening to me. Today, I couldn't. Today I just want to cry. Which makes it worse. I wish I had a little one to snuggle with. I wish I had someone to look up at me and say.."it will be alright mommy!" Today, I just felt life passing me by. Today I felt like I could leave this earth and no one would miss me. Today I felt hopeless. Today I felt like I don't have a story. Today...I felt infertility.

I just want God to do something major in my life. I want a miracle. When will it be my turn? I have soo many things to be thankful for in my life, however I can only focus on that ONE thing I don't have...a child.

On my way home tonight I prayed, I prayed God would do something big, something REALLY big in my life. Maybe bring someone looking to give their baby up for adoption to me or maybe even conceive naturally...pretty BIG stuff, I know! This I KNOW is true... God loves me, He has this...He gets me. I have FAITH God will do something big. I don't think He knows how to do it any other way!

As I was ending my prayer tonight during my car ride home this song came on. I couldn't help but smile, I knew it was a "God thing"! It was confirmation he knows! He knows when... no one else knows!

Blessings,

Lo




No one knows..http://youtu.be/RCXMK0bR8I0

Today, I felt infertility. I mean I REALLY felt it. It has been following me the past few weeks. Babies everywhere, ultrasound pics being uploaded to facebook, baby pictures being pinned on pinterest, adoptions, due dates getting close for pregnant friends, baby showers, baby bump pics, pregnancy announcements, and the final kicker...an adorable birth announcement in my mailbox tonight! Deep down, the core of me is soo happy and over the moon for my friends and acquaintances who are in "baby land", but the right now, THIS week, THIS day, I'm...well, I'm sad...I'm infertile.

Some of you who have experienced infertility and pregnancy loss know what I mean when I say I felt infertility today. Some days are better than others. I deal with it. Ignore it. Pretend it's not happening to me. Today, I couldn't. Today I just want to cry. Which makes it worse. I wish I had a little one to snuggle with. I wish I had someone to look up at me and say.."it will be alright mommy!" Today, I just felt life passing me by. Today I felt like I could leave this earth and no one would miss me, Today I felt hopeless. Today I felt like I don't have a story. Today, I felt infertility.

I just want God to do something major in my life. I want a miracle. When will it be my turn? I have soo many things to be thankful for in my life, however I can only focus on that ONE thing I don't have...a child.

On my way home tonight i prayed, I prayed God would do something big, something REALLY big in my life. Maybe bring someone looking to give their baby up for adoption to me, conceive naturally, pretty BIG stuff I know! This I KNOW is true... God loves me, He has this...He gets me. I have FAITH God will do something big. I don't think He knows how to do it any other way!

As I was ending my prayer tonight in my car ride home this song came on. I couldn't help but smile, I knew it was a "God thing"! It was confirmation he knows! He knows when... no one knows!


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RCXMK0bR8I0&feature=related

Blessed beyond measure!

Hello friends and followers!

Wow! Sooo much has been going on in my little world! Especially since the last time I have blogged! So I am gonna just do a quick snippet of a few important things, otherwise this blog post is libel to be 20 pages long!!! So here I go...

Amy and I started a "silly Facebook page" roughly 8 months ago. We started it in hope that it would bring us other friends and supporters who were walking our same journey. We wanted to create this page so while we were in Missouri that we would be able to converse about our IVF cycles with others. We came up with a "catchy" name for it too: Faith N' Fertility!! Well to date our "silly Facebook page" has over 3,150 friends! What?! It has blown both Amy and I away with all the love, support, prayer and fellowship our "silly Facebook page" has brought to others as well as us. She and i both realized about 3-4 months ago what we really had....and what we felt like the Lord was calling us to do. He was calling us to action, He was calling us to start an organization off our "silly Facebook page"! So guess what? WE ARE!!!! Amy and I are feverishly working to expand Faith N' Fertility into something even bigger. To spread hope, awareness, advocacy to those battling infertility and pregnancy loss.

Website- We are working on finalizing our Faith N' Fertility website: www.faithnfertility.org. We currently have a static page up, but are meeting with our web developer today to start to put the finishing touches on things! We are beyond excited!!

OUR LOGO!! See it below this blog posting! Thanks to Vision One 76 for developing our brand, we love it so much and can't wait to "wear it with pride"!

Soooo much more to catch you up on it's unbelievable, so stay tuned!!!

Blessings!

Lo






Wednesday, September 7, 2011

This I know for sure...

Well again time has passed since my last blog, how does time slip away so quickly? In my last blog I spoke about things that God was beginning to reveal to me. I often relate things to an onion, it is such a good representation when